Troubled Confession
Silken words of unintended treachery sleep uneasily just beneath my tongue
Words that would be soft caresses if they had
Fallen from glossy lips in another time and place
Stand poised to unravel the delicate bond knit so carefully between the two of us and
Threaten to snag in the imperfections of the shimmery velvet cloak of teasing words I wear to mask my longing
At a distance our conversations become laced with suggestion
Flirtations easily dismissed as playful words exchanged by witty senses of humor
Tender banter that returns some sparkle to my dimmed chocolate gaze
And to your eyes the color of stormy skies
And provokes a content smile to spread lazily across softened features in the pale lamplight
Things you dont see
In the soft gray light of a cold misty winter morning nostalgia and loneliness overwhelm
Tainted vision blurred by dreams that Im afraid cannot come true
Rainwater that seems to only wet the surface of my skin struggles to cleanse my weary defeated thoughts out of my hardened mind
Whispered wishes escape chapped cracked painful lips
Willing casual teasing to reveal hidden meaning behind our lighthearted exchange
So that on days when raindrops stream down the windowpane
Matching the tears that cloud my eyes as I stare unfocusedly down at worn sidewalks
I could imagine you wrapping me up in your arms cracking the shell around my heart
Although it should be me taking care of you
Things I dare not say
Middle of the night, I walk alone, my heart goes out to you
The wind would be whistling outside my window, I know, and I cannot see the moon
Darkness and solitude envelop me and the air is ice cold against my papery skin
Echo of the loneliness I saw in your eyes that I wanted to chase away
But you would not let me in, for days, you would not let me near you
And as I wander back I wonder if I could ever even fathom your intangible ever-present hurt
Inescapable fear presses upon my soul heavy like stones sharp like daggers
Unable to smooth away the worries in your head with my small hands
Helpless against the haunting voices of your past with my broken song
Useless so far away so many miles from where you are stars sparkling high above
Wishing for a magical kiss so that I could erase all the pain although it sounds cliched
Aching from the lack of you not knowing where we stand afraid of what I might find out
Silent strength to face the answers I dont want to hear and the truths I dont want to give in to
I want to take care of you hold you until it breaks down the walls around your heart
Things you should not know
Confessions of secrets I cannot hold in right now unburdening yet
Still heavy on my heart because the last thing I want is to hurt you
Especially not right now
All that is and all that isnt and all what I wish could be
Extraído de DeviantART por ~wanderinghearts
realmente profundo y hermoso...para cada quien hay algo de verdad en esta obra, para bien o mal
Escrito por Khlaudia a las 15 de Diciembre 2004 a las 11:10 PM